heyy guys and gals. it's been a while. indeed it has been. in the past few days, God has been graciously revealing to me many things. so many that i don't know where to start. haha. urm. but i guess i'll start with the most epic one. i've been praying and asking God to unveil what His will is for my education. you see, i'm at the point where i've reached one of those crossroads in life. and personally to me, this isn't one of those junctions where if you make a wrong turn, you can always find a u-turn sooner or later down the road and find your way back to the same junction so that you make the right turn. no. this junction was different. it was one of those crappy ones that if you make a wrong turn, you won't have the privilege of a second chance. it was one of those decisions that can't be made without God. i mean, being in a relationship with Him means doing life with Him after all.
i'm sure life is gonna be filled with those crossroads. some may seem less epic than the other but all of them are in every way significant.
anyway, back to the whole education thing. i thank God for finally revealing to me where He wants me to be. and i thank God for making it so clear to me through a series of difficult, crappy, unexpected, crappy, adverse, crappy circumstances. you see, God decided to send me off to a distant, strange land known as Kampar. have you heard of it? it's wayy up north. i have to be honest with you, i was in every possible way apprehensive about the whole thing. i mean. it was really overwhelming to know that God wants to remove you from the picture and place you in another. i was not totally down with the fact that i had to let go of everything (and when i say everything, i mean everyone) i once held dear. BUT. (haha.i went on an all-caps rage on the word 'but' to get your attention just in case you were falling asleep). Jesus did made it clear to all of us as believers that if we wish to follow Him, we must deny ourselves and take up the cross daily. basically He made it clear that doing life with God won't be easy and it requires sacrifice. and in my case it's really minor because all God was doing was letting me know that this is what He wants. God spoke through my darling cell leader the other day. and apparently the place i thought was 'home' was God's training ground.
Jeremiah 33:3 states "call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know".
well, apparently i've been keeping the whole 'Your-will-above-my-education' thing in prayer. and ironically, when God gave me a clear picture of it all i was like, "Oh Lord, what is this???" *inward laughter*so funny how we ask God for His will to be done in our lives and when He does it, we back down.
we ought to be grateful for the plans He have for us. and sometimes, His will may be hard to swallow but i encourage you, as one who tasted His unfailing goodness, to be of good cheer and take courage. He raised both you and i up for such a time as this. and when it's time, take hold of His will. the biggest regret would be to miss out. take ownership of His promises. greater things are yet to come. if things do look as if they are falling apart, ask God for His grace and strength to look beyond our present circumstances.His grace and strength is new everyday after all =) *more to come*
